The process of gathering all the drafts of ideas and memories for my book and completing them in posts is finished. Now for the task of actually formatting and playing the publishing game. I’ve been looking forward to that place. A place where the reality of what has been brewing in my mind becomes concrete and yet I feel I’m at a stall.
Part of that stall is the 7 days a week work schedule I’m enduring at the moment. Two more months and that will all be behind me! The other part is I’m famous for procrastinating!
I’m actually ahead of the schedule I set for myself, so maybe I should cut myself some slack.
Another reason for the stall is someone incredibly amazing has just recently entered into my life. And this my dear readers could possibly be a game changer for me. Already I’m noticing changes in things I once held dear in my heart.
So I’m thinking in the back of my mind that maybe this book of mind is the closing chapter of one part of my life and this amazing man the beginning of another. Interesting that he magically appeared a few days after I wrote the last post that will go into my book. Hmmmmm
All of this doesn’t come as a great surprise to me. Years that end in 6 have always been life changing for me. I can look back over the last 50 years and see each turn clearly.
No concern that my naughty posts will fade away. That is not in the cards. But I’m looking forward to seeing how this new relationship will influence my writings.
So in this stall I’m also standing in awe that what I have been believing for in a partner, a muse and a lover may indeed be at my door. In fact its as if the man I’ve been writing about all these many months and is described in detail through the posts that will be in my book indeed lives in the flesh and has walked into my life.
I’m giddy. I’m swooning. My mind is a mess. And did I mention that when I saw a picture of his cock I almost fainted! I’m still breathing deeply over that!
Yes, he’s long distance. But only a few short hours away. We will be meeting in the flesh very soon. Until then he is incredible in creating a bond between us now.
Yes. I’m at a stall. Only monetarily until I get my sea legs back. Let’s just call it a blissful place.
I’m going to enjoy it.
~ Vista
